My heart aches for her family. I can’t even imagine… It doesn’t seem fair. I mean, I know it is, but it doesn’t seem like it is. She was only 15, I just don’t understand. Maybe one day I will, or maybe I never will. I thank God so much for the school and the love I have felt there this last week. I thank God that anyone could cry on anyone’s shoulder, anyone could hug anyone, and that everyone understood. I love my family. I love my friends. And I hate how Satan and our sinful natures so often get the best of us. How we can get so wrapped up in stupid things that won’t matter in the years to come or even tomorrow. How we are so selfish and so unkind. It’s so dumb.

Hear You Me –Jimmy Eat World

There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.
What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
So what would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
God wouldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.

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its been quite some time. how is everyone out there in the xanga world? have a good 4th? i learned to drive a stick shift today, it was fun, me thinks i will really really like it. joel left a little less than two weeks ago. can't say i miss him much yet, but i will, that's for sure. we got two letters from him saturday. he's doing splendidly, sounds like he's really having fun and getting the hang of stuff. oh yes, joey says to say hi. he's coming back august 1st. and yes, joe, he is coming back. the Monopoly bug has bit my family this week. my little siblings have played an endless number of games. the title of this post was my little brother's way of telling liz how broke she was. he makes me laugh, lots. well, they all left for europe on friday. it's been so weird and not too fun, really, having mr. wisnewieski not be around at work. but then, again, i can't say i mind working with alex. megan and i had coffee the other night. i love that girl, i mean, really, who else can i wander around a grocery store for half an hour with and somehow still manage to have gobs of fun? my dad finally decided it was okay for me go to the youth group at valley springs, i am happy. in other news, i am starting to think about next school year. i've got lots to do to prepare. its going to be crazy. crazy busy, crazy good, crazy fun, and crazy sad. mostly i just need to get myself all revved up for yearbook so we can hit the ground running. alrighty, i think i've said enough for now to satisfy all you people out there. so, goodnight, -miss barbs

nothing much to say, as usual. life is getting more and more crazy as the end of the year gets closer. pinafore has been lots of fun, and they say we're doing really well. you know what makes me sad? is that some christian music these days has awesome lyrics, but the music is kinda lame. and all the music that sounds really cool normally has horrible lyrics. yes, that is saddening. less than a month of school, how crazy is that? laters, everyone, -barbara p.s. who all is going to family camp?

these next two days should be fun. but in the meantime, i have things to do. later, -barbs